I’ve never had a huge affinity for magnets or sticky notes with catchy phrases on them. They are most commonly plastered at eye level as reminders to keep a positive outlook throughout the day. Instead, I’ve always assumed the responsibility of being intrinsically motivated, striving to “redeem” every second given to me. However, there are several accounts (even just lately) when I simply can’t make myself meet my high expectations. For example, I like to spend the 30 minute drive to work praying. However, getting up a little after 4 am, coupled with night nursings takes its toll, and sometimes my body can’t catch up with my spirit. At those times I do well to drive safely, let alone focus my mind on the needs of others in prayerful intercession.
One morning I was exhausted; and because of that, I found myself doubting God’s blessing on the day ahead. How could God pour out His glory and make me an instrument acceptable for service if I lacked the strength to ask Him? I resigned to my physical weakness and just drove in quiet reflection. In that (somewhat guilt filled) emptiness, the Holy Spirit brought a verse to mind:
“Yet those who wait for the Lord will gain new strength; they will mount up with wings like eagles, they will run and not get tired, they will walk and not become weary.” Isaiah 40:31,
As I considered the meaning of the phrase “to wait on the Lord,” God changed my mood in an instant of awe.
Lately, God has repeated to me the importance of waiting on Him to work instead of trying to work things out for, I mean with, Him. Acknowledging to God my weakness and inability to even “redeem” the time, God comforted me with His Truth. He was working for His glory even if I couldn’t put forth the proper effort to join in. God’s grace to me — in every way — is based on His generous heart, not on my personal merit and striving.
As the sun started to warm the horizon with its rays, I felt renewed hope. I knew God would let me join Him doing the miracles — not because I was faithful enough, disciplined enough, or strong enough. All He wanted at that moment was my whole heart, mind, soul and strength — whatever I had to give. That was all I had to give — like the poor widow Jesus noticed coming with mere pennies; all I had was a heartfelt desire to walk with Him (Luke 21:1-4).
I have many things to thank God for and feel sincere gratitude for, but it is God’s unexpected acts of grace that motivate me the most and put my strivings to rest. It is His grace (giving me what I don’t deserve) that energizes an otherwise exhausted me with the hope of God-filled day.
About the Writer:
Lyndsay has been many things in her past, but no career, experience, or calling define her more than the desire to follow after Christ. At present, she teaches movement classes and works as a wellness consultant in addition to raising her daughter to know and love the Lord.
Lyndsay has a blog dedicated to sharing and celebrating the work of Christ through her experiences as a missionary, world traveler, knowledge seeker, and recipient of God’s lavish grace.