One of the reasons I enjoy writing for Yada Yada is that it helps keep me accountable to God. When the topics make their way around to me and I find myself up to write, it is always an opportunity to grow and a challenge to stomp out lies in my own mind more than a desire to list facts. This month’s question, the Provision of God, has and continues to surface in my reflections quite often. I am a single mom. Many days I feel a strain from what I consider to be unmet needs. The reality is that all my needs have been met — quite generously and abundantly actually. The unpleasant truth is that I have an abundance of desires that apparently don’t qualify as needs. Not exactly what one wants to hear! However, God is so kind to correct His children in love. And when the Lord corrects, hope is intertwined.
For me, the things I desire are not in and of themselves evil; however, an impatient heart is.
“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law.” Galatians 5:22-23
The following verse (“now those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires”) reminds me that sometimes, as one who belongs to Christ, I am called to dissociate myself from former desires that are not God-honoring. However, more often than not, this verse convicts me of my dependence on God to dislodge the subtle attitudes of flesh that seed fruit on much deeper heart level. As Jesus said in Mark 7:20, it is what comes from a man’s heart that defiles him. Fleshly attitudes are just as sinful as carnal actions, and usually come one right after the other (James 1:15).
So now, when I feel annoyed, impatient, frustrated or discouraged by an unfulfilled desire or strained circumstance; it is like that flashing warning light on my car’s dashboard — a gauge that I definitely don’t want to ignore. Galatians 5:16 says, “walk by the Spirit, and you will not carry out the desire of the flesh.” That verse has become my solution: the desire that I use to fight desire. I make it my number one pursuit to abide in Him — knowing that He promises to abide with me and bear His fruit in and through me along the way.
“He who abides in Me and I in him, he bears much fruit, for apart from Me you can do nothing.” John 5:5
God is the only one I know able to turn my “unmet needs” (i.e. desires) into a fertile vineyard of the choicest fruit: godliness.
About the Writer:
Lyndsay has been many things in her past, but no career, experience, or calling define her more than the desire to follow after Christ. At present, she teaches movement classes and works as a wellness consultant in addition to raising her daughter to know and love the Lord.