When I am desperate in life, I’m discovering that I am exactly where God wants me. For when I am desperate, I am completely dependent on Christ.
God is taking me to the deepest parts of myself and literally tearing down strongholds that I didn’t even know were there. It is as though He is tearing me down to my foundation in order to rebuild me and make me stronger. But, I must be honest in saying that the process is hard. I hold on to hope, knowing that all of this is temporary, and I am DESPERATELY clinging to my Savior. The only reason I am this transparent about what God is taking me through is because I feel it is an act of obedience towards Him. Transparency is actually how He has called me to worship Him during this time.
Have you ever been on a boat as a sudden storm came upon you? This past summer I had the privilege of being on such a boat… And believe me, land NEVER seems near enough when the frantic wind comes sweeping through your body and the waves are suddenly crashing around you as the constant beating of the water on the hull makes everyone hope and pray that boat is not going to break to pieces from the excessive pounding.
The storms that suddenly sweep over us in life are no different. We wonder if we are going to be able to take one more beating – if we can handle one more thing to go wrong. We are desperate. And we have a choice to make… We can try with our own human efforts to stop the waves of life from crashing and crushing us or we can hold fast to Christ and TRUST the God who controls the winds and the waves to get us through the storm. It reminds me of the passage below.
When He got into the boat, His disciples followed Him. And behold, there arose a great storm on the sea, so that the boat was being covered with the waves; but Jesus Himself was asleep. And they came to Him and woke Him, saying, ‘Save us, Lord; we are perishing!’ He said to them, ‘Why are you afraid, you men of little faith?’ Then He got up and rebuked the winds and the sea, and it became perfectly calm. The men were amazed, and said, ‘What kind of a man is this, that even the winds and the sea obey Him?’ Matthew 8:23-27
I don’t know what today has in store. And I am so thankful that I can’t control today’s outcome. All I can do is choose “Trust” (Proverbs 3:5) and “Obey” (John 14:15) my Father in Heaven. I am thankful for this difficult season of life because I know that once I have gone through this, I will have learned all the amazing truths God wants me to understand at a deeper level. So through the pain and through the storms of today, I will praise and cling to my Savior who holds me fast through the storm.
About the Writer:
Catherine has been married for 16 years and has two incredible preteens. She is the caretaker of her father-in-law who battles dementia and works full time with her husband at their financial planning company. Having been broken and stripped from the pride she used to clothe in daily; her prayer is that it will never be back as God saves solely by His grace. She is a recovering people pleaser who is constantly going to the Throne of Grace to refocus her life, pursuits, goals, dreams, and time. She is most passionate about worshipping Jesus in every thing and being transparent while giving God credit for every aspect of life.