God? Wow! No idea! I think I know Him, then He surprises me again! He and I have wrestled on more than one occasion. Not quite sure why I continue . . . . it’s all pretty predictable and boils down to God giving me something I didn’t want or not giving me something I did want or doing something I don’t agree with, etc. So, true to James 4:1-3, I have a tiff with God – a fight that can end only one way for a child of God—nestled back in His loving arms, sometimes after a loving little swat on the backside from my Abba, Father.
When my fiancé and I were engaged (we should be married happily-ever-after by the time this is published), we were completely blindsided. He lost his job days before he proposed; and a month before our wedding, he still had not found a job. My daughter and I were living with my parents at the time and he was staying with an aunt and uncle to save money.
As we watched that fairy-tale cottage in the Shire—you know, the one with the little fence, all warm and cozy—fade back into the story books no matter how diligent and competent he was, we wondered what God was up to. I couldn’t help “flashing back” to my “nomad” years when I wondered where I would sleep the next night or if I would ever have a place that felt like home.
All that to say that I have to watch my mind and mouth when talking to God. I have to decide just to accept that, in some of what He allows in my life, I may later see His kindness, and some of it I may never understand. Either way, sometimes my best is to simply throw my hands up in the air and say, “Thank you, God! You are good and You’ve got a plan!” In Paul’s letter to the Ephesians, God calls me always to give thanks for everything in the name of Jesus Christ. It encourages me that His purpose is we, who were the first to trust in Christ, should praise our glorious God (Ephesians 1:12; 5:20). When I’m tempted to lengthen my wrestlings with God past their season (a time to feel anger, a time to feel sad, a time to get God’s direction on how to move forward), this is the passage I read to reclaim truth from Paul’s prayer.
. . . . that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with power through His Spirit in the inner man, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; and that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ which surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled up to all the fullness of God. Now to Him who is able to do far more abundantly beyond all that we ask or think, according to the power that works within us, to Him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus to all generations forever and ever. Amen. Ephesians 3:16-21
In the end, I know WHATEVER is going on is still part of His love for me, and I praise Him.
About the Writer:
Lyndsay has been many things in her past, but no career, experience, or calling define her more than the desire to follow after Christ in response to His gracious work in her life. At present, she teaches movement classes and works as a wellness consultant in addition to loving her amazing husband and raising her daughter to know and love the Lord.